Well Well Well
It's all over right now
Year One Semester One
It's Ended already~~
Whoohoo..
Did something crazy today after the tutorial
hahahahaha..
go view my facebook then you'll know
of someone's creativity
XD

Recalling back the first day of uni
i mean degree of course
well...i was so blur
blur in terms of the study part
and yet now
im still blur
those subjects i took
seems like i understand it
but looked in another way round
i dont understand it at all
so what to do??
Study lorrr
Sigh..
there were so many things happened when i think it over
some were happy memories
but some were not
but im glad that i managed to pass through all this tough
Am i sound like praising myself?
perhaps I am..
Looked back all the reports i'd done
all of a sudden
i felt that im awesome!
LoL...
okayla..i will stop SS-ing here
muahahahahahaha


this week is a tough week for me
got lots of matters in my head
until i cant really concentrate in my studies
well first of all
i hurt by one of my best friend
seriously not to say im immature
i believe if it happened in you
you will feel the same too
well,since it's over
i dont want to speak about it anymore
cuz it cant change anything
once hurt,that's hurt!
And also,
since i already said not to tell anyone about what i told you
everytime you sure will tell the one
the one
that i wont want the one to know about
but everytime you just break your promise
then that day
when i call you..
you just said those words to your friends
well...it hurt me!
seriously it does..
Tell you..
you're the first one that i open my heart to let you in
since when i being hurt by my friends
Thousands of times
i changed
i wont believe anyone anymore
it's you that changed me
but now you're the one that hurt me in return
so who am i in your heart?
perhaps just someone silly that you can use her
find her
when you in need!

then i saw something just now
i really put it down already
but when i saw it
i feel sad
my heart feels the pain
i really feel like want to cry when i saw that
that night...when i saw that
i was so down
DOWN!
really felt like crying
but somehow...something pulled me back
i just act like nothing actually happen
everything's fine
everything's okay
but in my inner part
actually everything is not okay
not fine at all
i dont know why i change to be so
i dont know how to describe
it just hurt me so much
but who am i to feel hurt?
Im just...
perhaps she's right..
It's normal for some people
perhaps people just treat you as nothing
so FRIENDS are meant to be?
i believe everyone of you have your very own answer in your heart
and different people got different view...

Since it already wilt
it's no point for me to take care of it anymore
I need to find another plant
that i actually manage to see the blooming
cuz i believe i also deserve happiness..
Do i?

4/9/09 1:50 am...