Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Im so dead

Why am i saying
Im so dead!

what the hell.
Gawd.
today is only the second day of my new semester and im feeling so
SICK
STRESS
TENSION

!!!
SICK as in im feeling a bit feverish now and my head is so painful. Then also not to mention i-dont-know-why my im so TIRED.
Gawd.

STRESS as in this semester is so "konon-nya" very tough and im pretty sure after two days of class.
and also.
today im so lucky in the sense that the Dr Loh (my Chemistry lecturer) approached me in the lecture hall and asked what is my name.
then i told her.
then guess what?
she give me a look. what look you must be wondering. well..
it's
GO AND ANSWER THE QUESTION
see?
people dont get me wrong. not i dont want to answer. just that i dont know that i actually can catch the lecturer's eye. maybe im too FAT?
i know la. I FAT LOR!
can ad onot?
sigh.

TENSION as in those subjects are damn tough and not to mention i forgot all i had learnt before. WHAT THE HELL
where's my memory for ORGANIC CHEMISTRY gone to?
mana I mia MATHS I vanish to?
i bet i will got to find out that i lost some of the others pretty soon. maybe TOMORROW?
shit!

but anyhow. after all i had a great time for the lecture today.
not Chemistry for Engineering of course.
it's
INTRODUCTION TO CHEMICAL ENGINEERING.
well,it;s my advisor and she's in charge of this subject and she did revealed a lot of meaningful things to me. and it starts to make me thinking what i want from my future. seriously she's kinda right. I chose this course because i love chemistry and physics. but i think it's not the way i should choose my course with this. but then it's all too late and luckily i find myself to be in love with this course.
*though it's actually killing me*
after viewing the field that available in future, i think i would prefer to work in pharmaceutical and health care industry. i want to involve myself in it.
hope i can do it la.



Did i tell you guys what i get for my MUET?
DAMN MALANG i tell you!
9 more marks to go
then i can declare myself as a BAND 5!
* please dont get me wrong. Im not showing off. Just that.. a bit am gut?(hokkien please)*
GAWD
GAWD
GAWD
GAWD
GAWD

but i dont think i will take the exam anymore.
exam terrifies me
with all the mid terms, assignments, lab reports and FINALS coming all the way
RESIT is not an option for me right now.



I am looking for someone to speak ENGLISH with me
PLEASE.
I feel that my speaking SUCKS!
so many grammatical MISTAKES.
Im so dead.



you know what?
Im freaking TIRED!
what the hell!

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